*~Restless Ecstasy~*

It’s been great during the past two years when everything seemed to be falling into place at a normal pace. Studies, Work, Relationships, Friends; everything was nearing perfection…

All of a sudden - SILENCE.

Someone had pressed the fast-forward button. All I could hear was the whirring sound of the tape of life. Suddenly, I was 26 years old and drafting out my future. I was finishing up my degree, other qualifications, planning my wedding, making plans to migrate. It was all even better than what it was before. Everything finally felt RIGHT. THIS is what I had been waiting for all my life…. and I was enjoying every minute of it. I thanked that someone who pressed the much needed button and helping me stumble upon the much awaited future.That someone was me.

All was good until I fell. - I fell out of love, out of uni, out of my mind.

That’s when everything came crashing down.

The familiar silence was followed by that eery whirring sound. This time, I was not so eager to hear it. Because I knew, it was time to go back. Go back in time to be that 20 year-old who had years to complete her education, years to even plan her future.

So here I am.
Back where I should’ve been all those years.

So what’s wrong then? It’s been a life changing experience has it not?
It sure was life-changing. I got so used to being 26 years old, that I’ve forgotten how to be 20 again…
It feels like my life has been shattered into a million pieces and I need to find each piece and make the puzzle fit to find myself again.

All of a sudden…. I feel very very lonely and I have 999,995 pieces more to go.

I highly doubt it. Sorry for being such a cynic, but 2008 seems worse than ever in Sri Lanka. During the 1st week itself there were shootings and bombings not too mention price hikes.

Yesterday we went out to have lunch with a couple of buddies…. and we realized that out of what we ate, we gave like a quarter of the money to the bloody government. For what? Continue the war which is (ACCORDING TO THOSE BIASED IDIOTS) going to end soon.
Wake up and smell reality people! This is a guerrilla war you’re talking about! And SAY we won this war by hook or by crook, what is the guarantee that this whole so called “Ethnic Situation” won’t rise again?

Oh well, everything seems so expensive nowadays, it’s a headache when planning an outing. The hypocrisy is that while everyone else is suffering and paying HUGE taxes, the hundreds of ministers are enjoying away…

First of all, if MR is SO sure of winning this war, the first thing he should do is cut additional costs of all ministers..we seem to be paying taxes NOT for the war to progress but to fatten our ministers as well as himself and his family.

I really want to go on about this topic, but I will leave it for tomorrow as I have to jet off.. GRRRR!