*~Restless Ecstasy~*

Yeah, It’s tough… Moving on. But I’m going to at least try. I know everyone wants to know the reason behind it, but the truth is…no one will ever understand. In everyone’s eyes, I’ll always be the villain. Why? Because he’s the nicest guy a girl can ever find. Yes, he really really is. But I’m sticking to my decision for reasons no one else can fathom but me.

Someone wise said:

“The past in comparison to the time ahead is nothing, and to keep a relationship going great, just the right guy isn’t always enough … it’s mainly based on a feeling that carries you on.. that keeps you wanting him forever and if that feeling is lost then i think you’ve lost everything. You’ll have the perfect relationship with the perfect guy in the worlds perspective, but not in your heart.”

This is how I feel exactly. I might seem callous in many people’s eyes, but I don’t care anymore. Its about time I stopped giving a rat’s rear about what people think about me.

Thank you to all those who were there for me when the going got tough…
And I’m sorry for hurting you…..the person I care about the most!

Yeah, I’ve finally decided to make the list official!! :]

1. Complete this list by adding up to 100 things on it.
2. Go back packing across the world and visit every possible city (Completed - Bangkok, Delhi, Agra, Rajastan)
3. Learn a new language and make sure I use it.
4. Swim with a dolphin
5. Go skinny dipping
6. Go bungee jumping
7. Try climbing mount Everest (Atleast conquer a bit of it)
8. Build my own Eco-friendly home
9. MARRY
10. Send a message in a bottle
11. Ride a camel
12. Plant trees
13. Stay out all night dancing and go to work the next day without having gone home.
14. Dance and sing in the rain like there’s no tomorrow
15. Sing a song alone in front of an audience (Completed)
16. Write my will
17. Work at Greenpeace or WWF
18. Grow a garden and make a meal out of those veggies and fruits.
19. Go in a hot air balloon
20. Have a one night stand with someone who I will never meet again.
21. Kiss someone who I just met on a blind date
22. Fart in a crowded place
23. Give to charity anonymously
24. Create my own website.
25. Create my family tree
26. Run in a marathon
27. Go skydiving
28. Take a ride on a fighter jet
29. Visit the Titanic on a submarine
30. Climb a great pyramid in Egypt
31. Walk the entire path of the Great Wall
32. Take an African Safari
33. Watch the sunset over the Ayers Rock
34. Walk the Inca trail - Peru
35. Explore Antarctica
36. Ride a Harley Davidson on an open road
37. Gallop a horse on the beach
38. Go on a roller coaster
39. Stand on the rim of a volcano
40. Be in two countries at once
41. Make love on the beach/forest floor
42. See the seven wonders of the world (one completed)
43. Volunteer anywhere, anyhow
44. Have a Latin Lover
45. Swim in the dead sea
46. Write a book and sell at least one copy
47. Go on a ship at night
48. Sponsor a needy child
49. Study Abroad
50. Watch the Northern Lights
51. Look into my child’s eyes and see myself in them.
52. Have at least 5 piercings
53. Have my portrait painted
54. Go to Disney World
55. Visit a chocolate factory
56. See the ruins of Pompeii and feel the emotions that they might have felt.
57. Write a letter about myself to my future grand children.
58. Kiss in the rain
59. Hug a Koala Bear
60. Fly first class
61. Get a tattoo
62. Go on a glass-bottomed boat
63. Catch a snowflake on your tongue
64. Hold hands with a monkey
65. Have a rooftop picnic
66. Slow dance by candle light
67. Go in a horse drawn carriage
68. Have a barbie collection (Started)
69. Bury a time capsule
70. Flirt shamelessly
71. Go to the movies by myself
72. Find a four leaved clover
73. Be an organ donour
74. Own a hybrid car
75. Dance like no one is watching (Completed at numerous occasions)
76. Write the story of my life
77. Build a tree-house and use it as my escape route.
78. Give a homeless person my lunch (Completed at numerous occasions)
79. Help out at a soup kitchen
80. Pretend to be invisible
81. Test drive a Lamborghini diablo

82. Steam up a car

Have you ever been through
this rough journey of life
where you took the wrong path
and ended up in blight?
Or were you obedient enough
to listen to the wise ones
to take the right path,
no setbacks… no, not one!

Did you walk through dark tunnels
plummet into gorges
and have yourself sink deep
with just your head above the water?
Or was it that straight carpeted road
with no potholes
looking straight into the horizon?

Was it dangerous that journey?
Was it filled with fear, heartbreaks, and frustration
Or maybe it was joyful, with no looking back
not a single sting in your heart
no skipping of a heartbeat…
Sure it was monotonous but it was a lot of fun
Wasn’t it?

Did you climb high hills with a fear of the drop
and walk through rough storms and gales?
Did you see innocent creatures suffer along your way
and stop by just to feel its pain?
Did you prick your thumb when stealing a rose
from a forbidden garden?
Did you fight off the demons, and hurt yourself
when you realized the demon was within?

Or did you see no evil, speak none of it
and hear only of the sweetest things?
Did you never have to fight
because you took mighty advice
from the wisest and the most experienced?
Did you never feel pain because you chose not to
and feel all satisfied and smart?
Was it always correct, those decisions you made
so that you could always smile and laugh.

Do you look back on the hardships
you faced while journeying
or was there nothing worth looking back at?
Did you learn from your mistakes, laugh at some
and think, “I’m going to be a changed man!”
Do you honour yourself for being so courageous
for being so humble, for being fearless
to help a dying man fulfill his wishes?
Do you look back at your past journeys
and imagine what it would be like
if none of that ever happened?
So what will it be
my dear friends (and foes)
Is a question of my concern
Will you take that rough path which makes you strong
Or one of the sweet and simple kind?
They say I am flawed
I make wrong decisions
Ofcourse! And Im proud to say so.
Because deep down inside
I know what it’s like
To make mistakes and grow stronger.