*~Restless Ecstasy~*
This and That about Life and its Paradoxes
I love the way….
Author: restlessecstasy5 Nov
I love the way you look at me,
With those big and dark brown eyes.
And whenever I’m down with the blues
You’ll always make me smile
I love the way you kiss me,
Your lips so soft and smooth.
And when you make love to me
My body and soul - you soothe.
I love the way you make me happy,
So discreet yet so sweet
And when you tell me that you love me
it makes my heart skip a beat
I love the way we argue
over the silliest things
and when you crack your witty jokes
a smile to my face you bring.
I love the way you touch me,
Always sending shivers down my spine.
I love that you are with me,
And I’m glad that you are mine.
The nutter survives and is new and improved!
Author: restlessecstasy20 Oct
I LOVE THE WORLD!! …says Discovery Channel ofcourse 
It’s great to be optimistic innit?
I miss being optimistic…so I’m going to start being all happy and positive about everything once again!
So what’s good about these days is that:
1) It’s raining!!! That always means hot chocolate and loads of curling up under the sheets and reading novels (especially the soppy kind)
2) I’m working again! Wooo hooo! I only feel wholesome when Im working…. (Does that mean I’m a workaholic???? o_O)
3) I’m taking things a bit easy…. which is a good thing and maybe a bit bad as well cuz I slack when I take things easy…
4) I have a whole one and a half months for exams and I’ve started to study!! It’s always been the last minute cramming sessions and this is deffo a new improvement!!
5) I’m easier to please now…. my high expectations have disappeared…kazam! vamoosh! 
6) I’m dating again and it feels a lot better. 
(Ok, maybe it’s more than just dating.. *blush*)
7) I’ve grown even more close to my sis and mom. We are like the gilmore girls now plus one more sibling. (Maybe convert Lane into a sibling??)
8 ) I’ve embraced the true meaning of Buddhism thanks to a certain someone. I’ve experienced so much in life and it’s time to mellow down a bit.
9) I’m finally going to be 21 in two weeks. I’m prolly the last one out of all my friends… (Feels all nangi-fied)
10) I’m an emotional wreck, I’m passionate about my beliefs and I stand up for what I think is right, I’m a big hyperactive ball of happiness and I also resemble a wabbit (a cute one at that), I’m irrational, crazy, happy-go-lucky, a person who loves to love and be loved And I’m so goddamn happy to be me!
20 going on 26…
Author: restlessecstasy6 Oct
It’s been great during the past two years when everything seemed to be falling into place at a normal pace. Studies, Work, Relationships, Friends; everything was nearing perfection…
All of a sudden - SILENCE.
Someone had pressed the fast-forward button. All I could hear was the whirring sound of the tape of life. Suddenly, I was 26 years old and drafting out my future. I was finishing up my degree, other qualifications, planning my wedding, making plans to migrate. It was all even better than what it was before. Everything finally felt RIGHT. THIS is what I had been waiting for all my life…. and I was enjoying every minute of it. I thanked that someone who pressed the much needed button and helping me stumble upon the much awaited future.That someone was me.
All was good until I fell. - I fell out of love, out of uni, out of my mind.
That’s when everything came crashing down.
The familiar silence was followed by that eery whirring sound. This time, I was not so eager to hear it. Because I knew, it was time to go back. Go back in time to be that 20 year-old who had years to complete her education, years to even plan her future.
So here I am.
Back where I should’ve been all those years.
So what’s wrong then? It’s been a life changing experience has it not?
It sure was life-changing. I got so used to being 26 years old, that I’ve forgotten how to be 20 again…
It feels like my life has been shattered into a million pieces and I need to find each piece and make the puzzle fit to find myself again.
All of a sudden…. I feel very very lonely and I have 999,995 pieces more to go.
The law of the land like no other….
Author: restlessecstasy8 Aug
Yeah, I’m careless…
I have now officially lost my NIC. You know what’s worse? I can’t remember how or where or when I lost it.
I waited for two weeks, hoping that someone would’ve found it and sent it back by post. But no! Nothing. Nada. Zilch!
So, I went to the police station on Tuesday, for the first time in my life.
There were a few people behind bars and policemen walking all over, idling (not surprising now is it?). We were directed to the complaints and reports areas where there was a long queue. It was fascinating for me because I had only witnessed such scenes in movies, dramas and soaps…. There were people in slings, bandages soaked in blood, women in tears, all making their statements and complaining away to this single policeman who probably didn’t give a rat’s rear about their problems. He was writing away - pages and pages of how it happened, why it happened, when it happened and the works.
“Oya miniha karapu balu wadeta oota hena gahanna oneh.” a woman wailed.
“Mama dannawa oya gaanita karana de” a man bellowed
“Mama balan innaddima eka mage minihata gahagena gahagena giya raalahaami” a woman whimpered.
All this was written word-to-word on that book of complaints.
After 3 hours - it was finally my turn.
“Mokada missy prashne?” the policeman asked me.
“Mage NIC eka nathiwela raalahaami” I replied.
“Aah aththada? Padinchiya thahawuru karala graama sevakagen liyumak genaawada?”
“Er…mama gaawa passport ekai, driving licence ekai thiyenawa. Madida?”
“Baa baa, ara liyuma arang enna! EELANGATA!!!!”
He pushed me off.
So basically, I sat there amidst murderers, rapists, people who were quarreling, women who were wailing; for 3 hours, all for nothing. I went back home.
I was told that the graama sevaka came next, on Thursday.
So, on Thursday when I went to get my letter from him, he took out his anger and frustration out on me. He bellowed in my ear for everyone around me to hear saying what a nuisance this was to him, and how corrupt the police was.
I just sat there listening to him. (I owe the patience factor to Mr Sandypwants)
After a big ha-ho, I was on my way again to the police station.
And once again, I was faced with that long queue of people. Atleast this time there were few people who’d visited the hospital minutes before they came to the station.
I also saw this prisoner in handcuffs walking about. o.O
Just when I got there, the officer-in-charge of the complaints section just left without a word. After an hour we got to know that there was no one to write in the complaints book till next week.
“Meh mona wikaarayakda meh? Poleeciya wasaa atha kiyala board ekak daapalla!” A man threatened and spat before he stormed out!
I smirked.
“Poleeciya mewata nisi piyawarak ganne naththang, apita piyawara ganna wenawa!” another man spat.
I was loving the drama.
A new officer was sent to the complaints desk. When it was finally my turn, the officer was like, “Oya dannawada NIC eke issue date eka?”
“Naa neh.” I replied.
“Ehenang birth certificate eke copy ekak genna!”
I WAS FUMING BY NOW.
It was the 2nd day that I came to this dump and they were making such a huge fuss just to WRITE a complaint saying I HAVE LOST MY NIC on that SHITTY BOOK!
I stormed out of the place, went back home, got my birth certificate and came right back, only to realize there was a new officer at the desk. When I showed him my documents he said “Aiyo, birth certificate eka oneh naa neh!”
THAT WAS IT!
I literally turned red in anger.
I kept my mouth shut and waited till he wrote down my complaint. It was all done in 10 minutes.
So yeah, the job that usually takes 10 -15 minutes took me 3 days to complete.
SRI LANKA - A LAND LIKE NO OTHER!
In Silence and Darkness..
Author: restlessecstasy6 Aug
“Speak up, I love to hear your voice” he said.
“No can do, my mom might hear” she whispered. “What are we doing Dan? I’m so confused..”
“We are floating about remember?” he said. “Listen Sasha, I want you to be sure…I want you to know that I wont push you into anything. I don’t want you to rush into anything because we have all the time in the world.”
“You know I want to land right Dan? You know that what we have is out of this world… it’s unbelievable that sometimes two people click together so well.” she whispered.
His voice softened.. She loved it when his voice varied like that.
“I know…and even though I would love to officially land with you, I also know how much it means to you that people around you will judge you…. and when I land with you, I want the whole world to know…..so take as much time as you like.”
“B-b-but, what if we float away from each other? I don’t want that to happen. I can’t expect you to stay forever” she said out loud, in frustration.
“Sasha, the way things are going, I don’t think we can actually float away. At least I know I can’t. You see, we are like two feathers floating about…and bumping into each other from time to time. Trust me, the winds will never push us away from each other.” he soothed her.
“Dan, I think I need to land now.” she softened her voice again.
“But are you sure this is what you want?” he asked.
“Yes, with all my heart. I want this. I have never felt such an amazing connection with anyone in my life. I usually don’t use the word amazing too often, and this is the perfect moment to use it. Dan, you are amazing! Truly Amazing! This is not some kind of attention seeking gimmick or a fling or whatever you want to call it. It’s something beyond words. The connection is amazing!” she whispered in the darkness.
There was a familiar silence. Not awkward, but this knowing silence that surrounded them making each other communicate even without words.
“So this is it then.” he said.
She could feel his smile in his words.
So many feelings were communicated in that split second, in the darkness and silence… so much!
He glanced at his watch and made a note of the date and time.
“This moment might be the best in my life.” he whispered.
With that sentence…the silence and darkness surrounded them once more and cradled them to a deep slumber.
Downtown
Author: restlessecstasy4 Aug
Driving downtown
The view was breathtaking
Looked out the window
and saw the waves crashing
Good friends
Great music
and the breeze to calm you
It was all too good that moment,
when we headed down town
The birds were soaring
making formations
snake handlers roaming
with eery music notations
“Annaasi Annaasi”
The hawkers yell
“Its made of shark bone ma’am”
the man with the beaded necklaces, tells.
Boats of all sorts sailing away
“Currents are too strong for snorkelling”. some say.
The fish of majestic blues fighting for the bread
That a foreigner threw in just for a kick.
The rugby players loosing all focus
When the girls in bikinis keep walking past them
We sit and laugh at their frustration
The sea spray keeps cooling me down
The soft sands exfoliating my skin
The music making me groove
the fumes making me fly
The lights entertaining me
The friends always around….
This would be a time to remember
When we headed downtown.
Hard as it may be….
Author: restlessecstasy17 Jul
Yeah, It’s tough… Moving on. But I’m going to at least try. I know everyone wants to know the reason behind it, but the truth is…no one will ever understand. In everyone’s eyes, I’ll always be the villain. Why? Because he’s the nicest guy a girl can ever find. Yes, he really really is. But I’m sticking to my decision for reasons no one else can fathom but me.
Someone wise said:
“The past in comparison to the time ahead is nothing, and to keep a relationship going great, just the right guy isn’t always enough … it’s mainly based on a feeling that carries you on.. that keeps you wanting him forever and if that feeling is lost then i think you’ve lost everything. You’ll have the perfect relationship with the perfect guy in the worlds perspective, but not in your heart.â€
This is how I feel exactly. I might seem callous in many people’s eyes, but I don’t care anymore. Its about time I stopped giving a rat’s rear about what people think about me.
Thank you to all those who were there for me when the going got tough…
And I’m sorry for hurting you…..the person I care about the most!
100 things I want to do before I die
Author: restlessecstasy12 Jul
Yeah, I’ve finally decided to make the list official!! :]
1. Complete this list by adding up to 100 things on it.
2. Go back packing across the world and visit every possible city (Completed - Bangkok, Delhi, Agra, Rajastan)
3. Learn a new language and make sure I use it.
4. Swim with a dolphin
5. Go skinny dipping
6. Go bungee jumping
7. Try climbing mount Everest (Atleast conquer a bit of it)
8. Build my own Eco-friendly home
9. MARRY
10. Send a message in a bottle
11. Ride a camel
12. Plant trees
13. Stay out all night dancing and go to work the next day without having gone home.
14. Dance and sing in the rain like there’s no tomorrow
15. Sing a song alone in front of an audience (Completed)
16. Write my will
17. Work at Greenpeace or WWF
18. Grow a garden and make a meal out of those veggies and fruits.
19. Go in a hot air balloon
20. Have a one night stand with someone who I will never meet again.
21. Kiss someone who I just met on a blind date
22. Fart in a crowded place
23. Give to charity anonymously
24. Create my own website.
25. Create my family tree
26. Run in a marathon
27. Go skydiving
28. Take a ride on a fighter jet
29. Visit the Titanic on a submarine
30. Climb a great pyramid in Egypt
31. Walk the entire path of the Great Wall
32. Take an African Safari
33. Watch the sunset over the Ayers Rock
34. Walk the Inca trail - Peru
35. Explore Antarctica
36. Ride a Harley Davidson on an open road
37. Gallop a horse on the beach
38. Go on a roller coaster
39. Stand on the rim of a volcano
40. Be in two countries at once
41. Make love on the beach/forest floor
42. See the seven wonders of the world (one completed)
43. Volunteer anywhere, anyhow
44. Have a Latin Lover
45. Swim in the dead sea
46. Write a book and sell at least one copy
47. Go on a ship at night
48. Sponsor a needy child
49. Study Abroad
50. Watch the Northern Lights
51. Look into my child’s eyes and see myself in them.
52. Have at least 5 piercings
53. Have my portrait painted
54. Go to Disney World
55. Visit a chocolate factory
56. See the ruins of Pompeii and feel the emotions that they might have felt.
57. Write a letter about myself to my future grand children.
58. Kiss in the rain
59. Hug a Koala Bear
60. Fly first class
61. Get a tattoo
62. Go on a glass-bottomed boat
63. Catch a snowflake on your tongue
64. Hold hands with a monkey
65. Have a rooftop picnic
66. Slow dance by candle light
67. Go in a horse drawn carriage
68. Have a barbie collection (Started)
69. Bury a time capsule
70. Flirt shamelessly
71. Go to the movies by myself
72. Find a four leaved clover
73. Be an organ donour
74. Own a hybrid car
75. Dance like no one is watching (Completed at numerous occasions)
76. Write the story of my life
77. Build a tree-house and use it as my escape route.
78. Give a homeless person my lunch (Completed at numerous occasions)
79. Help out at a soup kitchen
80. Pretend to be invisible
81. Test drive a Lamborghini diablo
82. Steam up a car
The Flawed One…
Author: restlessecstasy8 Jul
Have you ever been through
this rough journey of life
where you took the wrong path
and ended up in blight?
Or were you obedient enough
to listen to the wise ones
to take the right path,
no setbacks… no, not one!
Did you walk through dark tunnels
plummet into gorges
and have yourself sink deep
with just your head above the water?
Or was it that straight carpeted road
with no potholes
looking straight into the horizon?
Was it dangerous that journey?
Was it filled with fear, heartbreaks, and frustration
Or maybe it was joyful, with no looking back
not a single sting in your heart
no skipping of a heartbeat…
Sure it was monotonous but it was a lot of fun
Wasn’t it?
Did you climb high hills with a fear of the drop
and walk through rough storms and gales?
Did you see innocent creatures suffer along your way
and stop by just to feel its pain?
Did you prick your thumb when stealing a rose
from a forbidden garden?
Did you fight off the demons, and hurt yourself
when you realized the demon was within?
Or did you see no evil, speak none of it
and hear only of the sweetest things?
Did you never have to fight
because you took mighty advice
from the wisest and the most experienced?
Did you never feel pain because you chose not to
and feel all satisfied and smart?
Was it always correct, those decisions you made
so that you could always smile and laugh.
Do you look back on the hardships
you faced while journeying
or was there nothing worth looking back at?
Did you learn from your mistakes, laugh at some
and think, “I’m going to be a changed man!”
Do you honour yourself for being so courageous
for being so humble, for being fearless
to help a dying man fulfill his wishes?
Do you look back at your past journeys
and imagine what it would be like
if none of that ever happened?
So what will it be
my dear friends (and foes)
Is a question of my concern
Will you take that rough path which makes you strong
Or one of the sweet and simple kind?
They say I am flawed
I make wrong decisions
Ofcourse! And Im proud to say so.
Because deep down inside
I know what it’s like
To make mistakes and grow stronger.
A couple of changes…
Author: restlessecstasy21 Jun
I remember my post of life being a roller coaster….. Well, it’s happening again!
A few days ago, I was upset about the fact that I was broke, filled up with work and deadlines and doing a degree in International Relations which is really not my cup of coffee. Well, things have taken a nice turn for me *touches wood* So this is what’s happening:
1) I’ve changed my major
Most of the students who were selected to do Geography had opted to settle for Economics, International Relations and other glamourous subjects. In the earlier list of eligibility, they had selected 50 students to major in Geography and I was the 70th in the list. 
But after all those students left, they revised the list and came up with a new one WITH MY NAME ON IT! WOOOO!
Then came the next headache…choosing between Geography and International Relations.
I spoke to a couple of people about these two subjects and the majority advised me to settle for IR. Why? They said that I would have a variety of job opportunities available. Is this really true? To figure out the scope of both subjects, I’ve listed out possible careers for both:
INTERNATIONAL RELATIONS:
Parliament:
clerks
tour guides
researchers
administration staff
Government Ministries, Departments and Agencies:
International
Peace Corp Volunteer
International Banker
Analyst, CIA
International Research Specialist
Foreign Service Officer
Press Officer
Strategic Planning Specialist
Translator
Instructor
Director of International Marketing
Policy Analyst
Lobbyist
Field staff
Agent, International Bureau, FBI
Consultant to Multinational Corporations
International Correspondent
NGOs
Media and Communications:
Public Relations consultancies
Communications units in Government Departments
Press secretaries
Spokespeople
Speech writers
Liaison officers
Journalists
Political commentators
Education
Government/Politics Teacher
Curriculum Developer/Supervisor
Researcher
Education Reporter
College Professor
Student Affairs Administrator
GEOGRAPHY:
Aerial Photo Interpreter
Facilities Planner
Land Developer
Site Researcher
Agricultural Extension Agent
Forestry Technician
Land Economist
Soil Conservationist
Air/Water Quality Control Manager
Geographer
Land-Use Analyst
Surveyor
Cartographer
Geographic Area Specialist
Location Expert Systems Analyst
Cartography Compiler
Geographic Map Analyst
Teacher
Climatologist
Geographic Information Systems
Map Curator/Librarian
Traffic Manager
Coastal Zone Manager
Geophysics Assistant
Map Editor
Transportation Analyst
Community Developer
Hazardous Waste Planner
Market Research Analyst
Transportation Manager
Computer Mapper
Health Services Planner
Natural Resources Spec.
Travel Agent/Specialist
Computer Programmer
Health Services Organization Manager
Outdoor Guide
Urban/Regional Planner
Demographer
Hydrologist
Park Ranger
Weather Forecaster
Earth Scientist
Industrial Developer
Peace Corp Volunteer
Wildlife Manager
Ecologist
Industrial Planner
Property Manager
Writer/Author
Editor
Intelligence Agent
Public Utilities Specialist
Zoning Investigator
Env. Impact Analyst
International Business Rep
Real Estate Agent/Broker/Appraiser
Environmental Quality Specialist
International Investment Analyst
Remote Sensing Analyst
College/University Professor
Seems like both subjects are equally matched with job opportunities eh? Well, I’ve switched to Geography nevertheless. I like the subject a lot (although it is very much harder and more scientific than IR) and I feel that I can do more activist work and do something worthwhile by doing Geography. I hate desk jobs and would want to work in the field.
When I spoke to my role model: My literature teacher, Mrs. Rajasingham, she asked me to “follow my heart” She asked me whether the numerous graduates of International Relations have helped the world and if so, why there are so many misunderstandings, wars, corruption in the world. I agree. I worked for the United Nations and I know how they pay thumping amounts to the foreign employees who are probably less qualified than most graduates of Sri Lanka.
I hope to join an organization and help create sustainable development in the world one day. So many problems are arising due to environmental degradation and I guess the world needs more passionate geographers than selfish politicians. I know Im being VERY biased here, but what the hell! CHEERS TO GEOGRAPHY!
2) Changes in Appearances
No, it’s not the fact that I’ve gotten fatter… 
(I’m trying to cut down on pigging out…HONEST!) It’s the fact that I’m going to change my hair colour. I’m trying to experiment with radical hair colours these days and I’ve always been fascinated by BLUE! Yes, you guessed it right, Im colouring my hair blue. (No, not the whole thing, I’ll be kicked out of Uni) Im going overall BLUE/BLACK and finishing it off with electric blue tips!
Hope it all works out ok.
3) Changes in Lifestyle
I’m cutting down on the partying! *sigh* (Yes, it’s possible)
I guess Im sick of going clubbing now. I’m sick of going through the trouble of getting dressed up, starting the night off well, ending up with all my friends drunk or high and sitting in a corner, sulking and smelling of smoke. I hate to rinse my hair for hours to get rid of the smell of smoke from it, I hate it when people start knocking over glasses because they are too drunk to even stand straight, let alone walk, I hate the fact that none of my girl friends come out partying with me (mostly cuz they dont get permission), I hate the fact that I HAVE to wait till my boyfriend drops me home, even though I want to go home earlier (Since I do not own my own car and my father refuses to let me drive his vehicle, alone).
So, Im taking it easy and relaxing at home. No more tiresome weekends for this lass! I might occassionally go out to hang with my girlies but other than that..NADA!
I’m also thinking of concentrating more on my studies without waiting till the last minute, have panic attacks and cram myself into finishing the entire syllabus in ONE day. I hope all this works out well and I dont end up being bored out of my mind.
Well.. that’s all for now folks! Hope life is treating you well as it is for me!
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